Well i have to say that i wear my Giants shirts and jersey's all season. From the 0 - 2 start to the superbowl. I just have to say every season we get made fun of and put down...this season we stopped perfection...

GO  BIG BLUE!!!!!!!!

Another day in my life. How much fun it is to sit here and actually feel like i'm making progress. Not picking up the phone to call and actually writing an email that was long over do. Feels kinda nice. Hard but nice. 

You ever sit back and watch a situtation that just isn't good, but the one involved has convinced themselves that it is. Being a friend you try to support that decision, because if you tell the honest truth they hate you for it and ignore you anyways, but if you sit and watch it rips your heart apart because you know that it's just bad. I never hold my tounge but lately i have been and that's just not me and i refuse to do it anymore. It takes a lot for me to run away from a situtation, espically when it's not one that i am involved in, but this time i don't have a choice. I am allowing myself to get upset and i have actually, outwardly, tried to support it. Inside i hate the idea and can see no good comming of it. I care about one party involved but the other i could care less about. I was sitting watching one of my best friends lose himself, and after listening to the reasons he is in this situtation I now have enough information to know that they are for all the wrong reasons. Now i know how my friends feel with me. I just want to shake him and get some sense in his brain but that will never happen. So instead of sitting by and having him think that i support his decision i am making my choice to pull myself out of this. I have seen the lying that goes on, both to the other party (again that's not such a big deal to me, cause i just don't care) and to himself. I'm also doing this because i hate being part of a lying i hate being kept hidden. Somebody who cares about you doesn't hide you. It's not hidden outright but certain parts are outright lies and it's my fault for allowing myself to be put in that situtation. 
It hurts to lose somebody who has been so close to me but when it does more harm then good it's time to go. I am an emotional maschoist and i know that but not anymore. 
I can be depressed all by myself i don't need any help with that.
Hopefully this will all pass and i'm sure there will be alot more ranting on this subject but for now i think that's good and confusing enough.

So for the first time in a while i am away for the weekend. Not far but a world away. Spending the weekend with my best friend cause her husband is going for a golf weekend in Md. So we are planing on doing girly things and get trashed. Which is a good thing cause i need to relax and let loose. You know for get about men and work. Well the men part is harder. Thinking of trying something new. That would be not remaining close friends with an ex. Which is a very strange concept to me but seems to the best thing this time. I am trying to figure all this stuff out this weekend. It just hurts to much to see him settling for somebody who is not even close to in his league. I know it may sound like i'm being a complete bitch but truthfully i'm not the only one who thinks that way and some guys even say i'm not wrong so there. *raspberries* but the ex wouldn't listen so what ever. I guess happiness comes in different forms for different people and considering we are sooooo different on so many levels he must see a lot of things that she has that i didn't. I am the best anyways and eventually everybody comes to see that...(i am kidding btw....) Oh what a pointless ranting from me to make myself look kinda bad and bitchy but oh well. There is so much more to this and most know the story so i'm not all that worried.......
The drunken weekend should be good anyways....

Ok this is my first post. I am hoping to find a place to vent and rant. It seems that i usually have something going on in my life. Mostly revolving around a move or my lack of a love life. It can get intresting though. So hopefully if nothing else i can be entertaining or at least entertain myself by writing down my stories. 
I have moved 10 times in the past 10 years so it is safe to say that i have not put down roots and frankly i'm not ready to yet. I have become an expert at only unpacking what is needed at the moment because i wouldnt' be at one place long enough to use anything and it's a pain in the ass to pack up everything. I have met a lot of intresting people along the way and have seen a lot of beautful and amazing places in my travels. The most beautiful is the Maine coastline. I have this love of New England. It is so much different then the cities in NJ that i have lived. Va Beach is nice but only to visit. Living there was horrible. I mean everything shut down when there was a dusting of snow on the ground. Pa also had so many beautiful places in it. The lakes and mountians were very relaxing. The company that i had there also made things a lot easier to swallow. Nj has the beach. I still have such a love for the NJ shore. Although I take a lot of flack for it, the memories i have there as a child can't be matched. Salem, Ma is another place that i love and hopefully will be visiting again this october. How tourist of me, i know.  In NH camping was amazing. My frist pee-in-the-woods camping experience. A river with waterfalls so far from a 'main' road that you wouldn't know there was life outside this campsite. I have never been in a place where you could see the bottom though the water, sit in a waterfall, have a fire on rocks the jet across the river, or when it rained the trees were so thick above you that the rain never hit the ground in drops. Like being in a big dome, you could hear it and you knew it was raining but you didn't really get rained on...very strange. And sunrise and sunset of water is amazing! Vermont had a very intresting sign that a city girl from jersey would never expect to see...it was a 'bear crossing' sign. Very strange. I also saw a 'moose crossing' sign but no moose. That made me sad, but eventually i will see one! 

Ok this is my first post. I am hoping to find a place to vent and rant. It seems that i usually have something going on in my life. Mostly revolving around a move or my lack of a love life. It can get intresting though. So hopefully if nothing else i can be entertaining or at least entertain myself by writing down my stories. 
I have moved 10 times in the past 10 years so it is safe to say that i have not put down roots and frankly i'm not ready to yet. I have become an expert at only unpacking what is needed at the moment because i wouldnt' be at one place long enough to use anything and it's a pain in the ass to pack up everything. I have met a lot of intresting people along the way and have seen a lot of beautful and amazing places in my travels. The most beautiful is the Maine coastline. I have this love of New England. It is so much different then the cities in NJ that i have lived. Va Beach is nice but only to visit. Living there was horrible. I mean everything shut down when there was a dusting of snow on the ground. Pa also had so many beautiful places in it. The lakes and mountians were very relaxing. The company that i had there also made things a lot easier to swallow. Nj has the beach. I still have such a love for the NJ shore. Although I take a lot of flack for it, the memories i have there as a child can't be matched. Salem, Ma is another place that i love and hopefully will be visiting again this october. How tourist of me, i know.  In NH camping was amazing. My frist pee-in-the-woods camping experience. A river with waterfalls so far from a 'main' road that you wouldn't know there was life outside this campsite. I have never been in a place where you could see the bottom though the water, sit in a waterfall, have a fire on rocks the jet across the river, or when it rained the trees were so thick above you that the rain never hit the ground in drops. Like being in a big dome, you could hear it and you knew it was raining but you didn't really get rained on...very strange. And sunrise and sunset of water is amazing! Vermont had a very intresting sign that a city girl from jersey would never expect to see...it was a 'bear crossing' sign. Very strange. I also saw a 'moose crossing' sign but no moose. That made me sad, but eventually i will see one!